Each morning, before work, I need a little time to myself.
So, I stop at the same coffee shop every day, order a "medium and medium" cup of coffee, and I let myself be taken into a zone. This particular morning, I felt content. I felt content that all things were in accordance with a plan I hadn't even set for myself. On the outside, it would seem that all is well with me. On the inside, I'm falling apart. I have cried myself to sleep virtually every night since Wednesday.
Yesterday, the strangest thing happened at the strangest possible time. A scripture popped into my head: Proverbs 3:5. I never think of scriptures randomly. I barely think of scriptures even as I'm reading them. But, as I'm sitting, contemplating the anti-climatic theme which is my life, I thought of this:
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways, acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
I didn't put quotations around that scripture because I'm not sure I quoted it right, but I thought of it. And, it gave me comfort. Every single adversity or insecurity I've faced has provided me blessings and confidence. And, I'm confident that whatever path I take--will be paved by a clear direction God has paved for me. I'm leaving my fate up to him and will work diligently to thank Him for guiding me there.
Enjoy the day and be blessed.
So, I stop at the same coffee shop every day, order a "medium and medium" cup of coffee, and I let myself be taken into a zone. This particular morning, I felt content. I felt content that all things were in accordance with a plan I hadn't even set for myself. On the outside, it would seem that all is well with me. On the inside, I'm falling apart. I have cried myself to sleep virtually every night since Wednesday.
Yesterday, the strangest thing happened at the strangest possible time. A scripture popped into my head: Proverbs 3:5. I never think of scriptures randomly. I barely think of scriptures even as I'm reading them. But, as I'm sitting, contemplating the anti-climatic theme which is my life, I thought of this:
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways, acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
I didn't put quotations around that scripture because I'm not sure I quoted it right, but I thought of it. And, it gave me comfort. Every single adversity or insecurity I've faced has provided me blessings and confidence. And, I'm confident that whatever path I take--will be paved by a clear direction God has paved for me. I'm leaving my fate up to him and will work diligently to thank Him for guiding me there.
Enjoy the day and be blessed.
